Musically begging for a few coins, the soul singer and his vibrato, merged the voice that had fed him for years with the speed of the arriving L train and its artificial breeze.
I felt triumphant, in spite of my lack of victories.
Growing up raised by Hollywood, I would have assumed this would be one of the moments when the protagonist has a life changing experience, an epiphany, or simply a great idea.
I had neither of them.
But I felt alive. And that was enough for me and the poorly written, at times absurd, story-line of my life.
I discovered myself experiencing what I'm experiencing surrounded by the strong smell of piss and the rotating Gatore bottles of the 59 St station.
And I kept looking at the neon green letters and the black background of the announcements with my hair flying because of the speed of the trains passing by.
It said I had to wait three more minutes.
Your train will arrive in three more minutes.
Three more, three more.
It announced the time I had to endure among the pee and the empty bottles, the loud noise that penetrated the headphones of the cool kids on the benches, and the sweet ladies complaining about the weather.
But I realized that as much as I kept looking, waiting, expecting, I was not seeking for that answer.